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I did not poison Prabhupada. In fact, nobody poisoned Prabhupada.
TAMAL KRISHNA GOSWAMI
There were many dozens of devotees surrounding Srila Prabhupada in his final pastimes. Their only concern was to see Srila Prabhupada continue to live with us.
Please accept my most humble obeisances. All glories
to Srila Prabhupada. For quite some time rumors have been circulating that Srila
Prabhupada was poisoned, murdered by his own disciples. I as his secretary have
been the chief accused. Many of you might have wondered why I have not denied
this charge if there is no truth to it. The reason is quite simple: I felt the
most appropriate and beneficial way to do so was to publish my diary, “TKG’s
Diary,” both in book form and electronically in the Supplementary VedaBase.
This allows everyone the chance to judge for themselves what went on during
Prabhupada’s final pastimes. I also did not want to be drawn into endless
debate with persons who are not actually interested in hearing facts that
contradict their spurious theories. Still, friends have urged me to at least
make one statement, and having read HH Bhakti Caru Swami’s, I now am doing the
same. It is not meant to be a comprehensive response to each and every
allegation but a simple statement of fact.
I did not poison Prabhupada.
In fact, nobody poisoned Prabhupada.
There were many dozens of devotees surrounding Srila Prabhupada in his final pastimes. Their only concern was to see Srila Prabhupada continue to live with us. Especially those serving him personally were attentive to detail and every word His Divine Grace spoke. Do you think that we could be so callous as to have heard Prabhupada say “I have been poisoned,” and not be concerned? Of course we were concerned. We discussed the matter with Prabhupada and among ourselves, as anyone can read in “TKG’s Diary.” We did not go searching for a murderer because we concluded there was no murder.
Some have suggested that even if no one intentionally
poisoned Prabhupada, the medicine he was given acted as “poison.” I can well
imagine some will hold me responsible as Prabhupada’s secretary for giving him
But I was not engaged, nor were any of his servants,
because of our expertise in medical knowledge. All of us together did not even
know one percent of what Prabhupada knew of Ayurvedic medicine. It was His
Divine Grace who had a dream about a Kaviraja preparing a particular medicine,
and it was His Divine Grace who reviewed each and every type of medicine that he
Still, no medicine “killed” Srila Prabhupada. His
Divine Grace said that Krishna had given him the decision whether to stay or
not. It is most unfair to say that any one of us who were serving him was
praying for his untimely departure (what to speak of orchestrating it). Again
and again we begged Prabhupada to stay with us, even offered our life in
exchange for his, as any good disciple would do. Prabhupada repeatedly said that
he was living simply due to our love and affection. He said that his Guru
Maharaja passed away dissatisfied, but that he was completely satisfied. No one,
he said, could ever hope to have such loving sons and daughters as he had. He
left us because he chose to leave. He left because Krishna called him back.
That is the plain truth and anything else is a
Prabhupada’s servants dedicated the better part of
their lives to serving Srila Prabhupada. We served him during his manifest
pastimes right up until the end. It was not easy to serve His Divine Grace
during the last year of his failing health. It was not easy to see his body
wither, his resolve to continue on, wane. By his mercy alone we stayed by him
throughout this difficult time and performed every possible service, collecting
his urine, removing his stool, bathing him, changing his clothes and bedding,
but most of all encouraging him to continue on. It has come as a most cruel blow
to be suspected of having been moved by any other motive than love in serving
our dear most spiritual master.
The facts will speak for themselves. In the coming
days and months all the allegations of poisoning will be shown to be allegations
and nothing more.
Then I hope that those who have falsely accused
others and me will have the decency to admit that they were wrong and beg
forgiveness, not from us, but from Srila Prabhupada, whose sublime final
pastimes they have attempted to tarnish.
Begging to always be a servant of the Vaisnavas,
Tamal Krishna Goswami
© CHAKRA 6th-Oct-1999
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